Guys, I’m not gonna lie. Yesterday was a shitty day. Shitty of epic proportions. I felt out of sorts the moment I woke up. My patience, like usual, was thin. Since I was lacking in patience the last thing I wanted to do was assert myself with the boys and because of that they laid it on thick.
Yesterday I was a shitty Mom. I ignored my kids so they cried out for attention. I put my exhaustion and needs ahead of theirs because I had had enough. I even spanked Cash for misbehaving. I hate spanking. I felt awful and wrong doing it but I didn’t give myself enough of anything yesterday to have enough left over for them.
It wasn’t just yesterday, either. I’ve been a shitty mom lately. I really haven’t given myself a chance to enjoy being home with them. So many Mom’s would love the opportunity to stay home and spend time with their kids, but I’ve got all the time in the world and instead of enjoying it I’m stressing about it. There’s nothing structured or enjoyable about it for any of us. I’m so stressed that I’m not working that I am not working hard enough at parenting. How messed up is that?
